down :(

It's fasting month and i'm feeling really down. And it's not because i can't eat at all. Mostly it's because i'm not breakfasting together with my family. I feel really uneasy whenever i think of my baby brother breaking his fast alone. I feel like crying now. Am i the traitor? Honestly i do not mind not having wealth but i wish for my family to be happier than they can ever be. We can never run away from problems and i know that other families have problems too only theirs is happier than mine. But i don't know what is wrong. We are not fighting so why am i so down?

I look up to the vast sky this evening and saw the beautiful crescent. I have always loved the month of ramadhan. I wish for the better. I miss my family.

something funny

yesterday i bought a new shoe. when i got home i tried it on and after that i lay down on my bed still with that shoes on. then grams came in and she said, " caca ni macam si kudung dapat cincin lah nenek tgk." in means you are like the handless getting a ring. i didn't know what it means until she explain it to me. then she continued, "kasut dekat rak tu pulak macam buah kepayang, dimakan mabuk, dibuang sayang" meaning; and your shoes on the rack are like the kepayang fruit ( a type of fruit ) in which you eat it and become dizzy but its not worth to throw. That i definitely get it and both of us laughed!