Is it just me?

Have I been sharing a lot of bad things that’s happening or a lot of bad things have happened to me? Of course I’ve been sharing a lot of bad things. There are great things that’s going on which I sometimes tend not to share. Like how beautiful are the clouds today. Have you guys seen how gorgeous a full moon looks like? The clouds were full and thick and white today that I could almost not see the blue sky. Plus grandfather sun was hiding behind it (probably sleeping that old manJ) making the clouds shine like white gold. Have I mentioned that I love riding the bus? Sitting at the side and looking out of the window at the trees and sky. Weird huh? I am weird. That’s why I don’t have many friends. Therefore, all the more I should appreciate them. I went to school for UT today and to my horror the lift wasn’t working! But it could take me to the third floor. So I went to the third floor and took the stairs to the sixth floor and the stairway door at the sixth floor was locked so I couldn’t go to class. And so was the door on the fifth floor and the fourth! Oh gosh! Fortunately the third floor stairway door wasn’t, so I manage to go out. I thought I was late so everything locked on me. But actually it was because I was way early. I saw my classmate Eamon (or is that how they spell it) and he told me that I wouldn’t be able to access the venue until half an hour before the UT starts. Eamon also shared that if you drink red bull, it work instantly but if you crash then you crash. Is that true?

:(

I went out earlier to school today although my exams only start at around noon because I had to print something for my project. So on my way to school, I was looking at my shadow and I noticed there is a shadow of a man behind me. I noticed but I didn’t think much about it. So I stop for a while to fix the fold of my pants then I continued walking. Then this uncle said hi. So I replied politely. Then he asked where am I going and I said school. Which school? And I answered. Then he asked if I had a boyfriend and I said no. Why didn’t you look for one? I said that it’s hard. How can it be hard when you are so pretty? I was starting to feel uncomfortable but I didn’t say anything. Then he started saying that he do it only once a month because he’s old. At that point of time, I only wish that he would leave but he did not. So I cross the road and he cross the road and I walk towards the mrt station and he walk to the mrt station and he continued talking about his whatever. He didn’t stop talking although I stopped replying him. He asked me why I didn’t take ‘that’ route to school since it’s shorter. I didn’t reply but of course it’s because ‘that’ route is quieter. And he said bye at the mrt station while I continued to walk to school. I guess it’s just my luck that I would never meet a guy that has good intention. If that’s the case, then guys or uncles, just go away.

:)

my first time collaging. i think i'll delete as soon as i do another one. this is ct and me by the way. on the way to attending a meeting in hq.

Val

I felt really sorry that Valerie left. I think I did see her around two days ago. As sudden as it is for me, I bet it feels more than just sudden to those closer to her. We weren’t the best of friends but somehow she had been pleasant in my eyes. Once in class, she called me bitch very casually while we were discussing. I think it’s because she thinks that I’m too weak and that’s one way to toughen me up. I didn’t mind it at all. She must be something. Usually I am quite sensitive. She’ll be in my prayers.

A letter to a friend

Are you sure I'm your dearest friend? Then why do you keep criticising my race and religion? Have you ever stop to consider my feelings before you say just anything that you wish to?

The reason why you had no means to contact me is not because I lost my phone or my phone is defective but it’s because I won’t let you. I can do better without having you in my life.

It’s been a year. Since I made the decision to never see you again. I bet you still don’t see where you’ve gone wrong.

I waited for you to change but there is a limit to even the most patient person. I don’t see that you were anything close to changing. Sometimes, I realised, that you won’t even leave my language alone.

Go find another friend. Who can endure your UNETHICAL attitude.

Nevertheless, thank you. For I had learnt to appreciate my better friends. Whom can respect my halal diet and other requirements and never did any comparison. Of course they wouldn’t. Who would be as redundant as you? Telling me to show more skin every time we see each other when you already know I couldn’t. Asking me to change my religion and what not.

And be like you? Lacking of moral values. Are you born this rude?

It’s almost a relief to write this all down. I never told anyone about this. As I don’t wish to say bad things about you. I suffered by your words all alone.

If you ever read this, do your dignity some justice and go away. I’ll thank God.

I’m not sorry.

I'm no longer mad.

I can't be mad at ct for long. she's too cute :) but i still go beyond the fact that she was wrong on that day.