Sunday, August 23, 2009

down :(

It's fasting month and i'm feeling really down. And it's not because i can't eat at all. Mostly it's because i'm not breakfasting together with my family. I feel really uneasy whenever i think of my baby brother breaking his fast alone. I feel like crying now. Am i the traitor? Honestly i do not mind not having wealth but i wish for my family to be happier than they can ever be. We can never run away from problems and i know that other families have problems too only theirs is happier than mine. But i don't know what is wrong. We are not fighting so why am i so down?
I look up to the vast sky this evening and saw the beautiful crescent. I have always loved the month of ramadhan. I wish for the better. I miss my family.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

something funny

yesterday i bought a new shoe. when i got home i tried it on and after that i lay down on my bed still with that shoes on. then grams came in and she said, " caca ni macam si kudung dapat cincin lah nenek tgk." in means you are like the handless getting a ring. i didn't know what it means until she explain it to me. then she continued, "kasut dekat rak tu pulak macam buah kepayang, dimakan mabuk, dibuang sayang" meaning; and your shoes on the rack are like the kepayang fruit ( a type of fruit ) in which you eat it and become dizzy but its not worth to throw. That i definitely get it and both of us laughed!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

My Aunt's bigshot hubby is back

My aunt just apologies to me this morning. She said, “I ‘m sorry dear, I haven’t been entertaining you…” and I said, “it’s ok,” with a big smile on my face. But it’s not okay at all. Ever since her husband came back two days ago, she had no time for me at all. The reason being, believe it or not, her husband needs attention more than I do. He is immature, impatient, a complain queen and etc. Trust me, afterwards, I’ll start writing about all the complains he’ll make about me.
Some may say that I’m not trying to understand him or to get along with him whatsoever. As if he’s doing anything. I’m so much youger so shouldn’t he be giving way to me? Try to make me accept him or something? The only time he talk to me was when he needed help with his hard drive and internet installing. God! It was hard and awkward to help him. I tried to be neutral though.
I think my grandma feels the same way. This morning I saw her eating her breakfast in a corner of our small, secluded bedroom beside the kitchen. I’ll try to take a picture of it if I saw this situation again. And grams kept saying in an awkward nice way that I scolded her for nothing when I really did not. Obviously she’s being overly sensitive due to something…
I was literally dissatisfied and I tried telling her that she is unhappy about something else but she shut me up. We didn’t fight of course. The bottom line is, I have no one to talk to. I can’t talk to my best friend because her perspective is way different from mine. Not that she’s at fault of course. I wish my siblings would care, unfortunately they won’t. My cousins. Are playing switzerland. And they can continue playing. I don’t care.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

mengalahkan keldai!

Alangkah dungunya sesiapa yang tak dapat membezakan antara isteri harus taat kepada suami dengan isteri harus menjadi mak turut yang bebal dan dengar setiap perintah suami as though dalam dunia ini tiada undang- undang.

Seorang isteri harus taat kepada suaminya;
Setelah bernikah, isteri haruslah setia kepada suami sebagaimana suami setia kepada isteri yang disayangi, melayan makan minumnya(optional), sentiasa sedekahkan senyuman yang manis dan bersolek untuk suami memandangkan suami penat mencari nafkah sepanjang hari.
. Ini adalah kerana kita manusia haruslah adil. Selepas bertungkus lumus mencari sesuap-dua nasi untuk keluarga, tidak patutlah jika suami terpaksa masak untuk diri sendiri ketika kelaparan dan menghadap muka isteri yang mencuka yang tidak reti bersenyum atau senyum pun buat- buat.

Tetapi ini hanya boleh diikuti jika si suami bekerja dan melayan isteri dengan baik. Jika si suami dengan tidak bermaruahnya goyang kaki dirumah dan tidak melayan isteri dengan sepatutnya, isterinya haruslah membuat aduan di mahkamah syariah dengan segera. Suami bergini, haruslah ditinggalkan kerana mereka akan menghancurkan hidup isteri dan masa depan anak-anak.

Tentang kerja rumah, WAJIB DIJALANKAN BERSAMA! Kalau setakat sapu rumah sikit sikit bolehlah isteri buat seorang. Tapi yang lain- lain harus dibuat sama rata. Ini adalah kerana suami hanya mencari nafkah sahaja bukan melahirkan isteri. Jadi nak bersikap adil pun berpada-pada. Oleh kerana kaum adam secara semulajadi lebih banyak tenaga sikit dari kaum hawa, lebih dari adil jika kerja yang lebih berat ditugaskan oleh suam. Seperti mengalih perabut atau perkara yang melibatkan panjat memanjat seperti munukar bulb lampu. Jika tidak, si suami boleh pergi kedai pakai baju butterfly. Tak payah pakai seluar lagi. Jadi transsexual. Setiap hujung minggu, buatlah kerja rumah bersama selapas itu bolehlah pergi bersantai ke apa.
Isteri harus menjadi mak turut yang bebal dan dengar setiap perintah suami;
Isteri harus buat setiap kerja rumah termasuk menukar bulb lampu yang jauh tinggi di siling dengan susah payahnya kerana suami itu raja dan tak patut buat kerja yang susah. Selepas itu walaupun sedang mengosok pakaian, haruslah tinggalkan baju itu hingga terbakar, dengan segera apabila suami meminta air minuman kerana si suami tidak ubah seperti orang yang cacat anggota dan tidak mampu untuk membuat air sendiri. Si isteri harus mengetepikan ibu bapa sendiri kerana suamilah paling penting dalam hidup si isteri. Ibu bapa sendiri kelaparan tidak mengapa tetapi suami harus ditatang bagai minyak yang penuh walaubagaimanapun. Kerana syurga ditelapak kaki suami.

Paling teruk apabila suami itu tidak berusaha untuk menanggung keluarga dan isterinya masih lagi melayannya dengan baik. Paling memalukan sekali apabila suami tidak bekerja dan isteri pergi bekerja untuk menanggung suami dan melakukan semua kerja rumah bagaikan hamba sedangkan sekarang ni menyimpan hamba tidak lagi legal. Pembantu rumah pun ada gaji. Paling tidak sedar diri sekali apabila suami itu dahlah habuk pun tak ada, teringin pula nak menduakan isteri. Lelaki boleh kahwin empat konon! Dahlah tak mampu.
Paling menjijikan sekali adalah apabila sesiapa pun yang fikir bahawa suami berhak memukul isterinya. Sedangkan Rasullulah pun tidak pernah memukul sesiapa. Bagaimana ada yang bertanggapan begini? Tak pergi kelas agama ke? Agama sesat.

Islam adalah agama yang syumul. Setiap undang-undang yang ditetapkan mestilah bersebab. Isteri harus taat kepada suami adalah kerana suami harus keluar mencari rezeki dan suami harus keluar mencari rezeki adalah kerana merbahaya jika kaum hawa perpanjangan di luar rumah, suami ada lebih tenaga untuk mencari rezeki memandangkan dahulu kala manusia harus memburu dan adalah lebih kerap untuk isteri menjadi bahan fitnah oleh si penfitnah, yang mati masuk neraka, jika dibandingkan oleh suami. As simple as that.
Oleh itu, memang jahillah mengalahkan keldai bagi sesiapa yang masih salah tafsir. Perkara ini amat mudah untuk difahami. Hiduplah dengan seadil mungkin. Jangan jadi jahil.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

missing u...

i've missed him soo much, i cried every night so badly. no one understand including himself. i miss u... i miss u...

apabila lelaki memakai skirt

Seorang anak taat kepada ibunya adalah sahih. Seorang guru mengajar anak muridnya juga sahih. Apabila seorang fagot husband masuk rumah, cuci kaki, tanpa membeli perabot rumah, penyapu atau sekurang- kurangnya vacuum sebahagian dari pada kawasan rumah itu dan isterinya harus membayar setiap keperluan rumah termasuk makanan, bill api air dengan beli rumah tu sekali! Lepas tu si isteri siapkan bilik pasangan itu dengan susah payahnya, beli cadar baru, bersihkan kipas, siapkan TV skali dalam bilik, dgn syampu, sabun, shaving cream, kilatkan tandas dalam bilik air bilik itu memandang si fagot suami requested for the masterbedroom which at the first place wasn’t their’s, adalah tidak sahih!!! Dan perkara ini mungkin boleh disahihkan jika si suami tukar jantina dia.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

humans have shame. at least shame.

I honestly don’t understand. Why is it, when he clearly shows a rotten black heart, so insincere and demanding and she felt so pressurized with him, she’ll still be so nice to him? Literally apologised as if she was the one at fault. Reversed psychology? Or is it because she’s the wife? One of my faci once told me and my classmates that women are brought down to earth to be loved, protected, cherished and most importantly, respected. Not too much to ask for right, since we ourselves came from women. But this is obviously not the case. Ever since don’t know when, women have been fighting for their rights. Why in the world do we have to fight for our rights when we already deserve it more compared to anyTHING else? At least, sedar dirilah sikit. He should have taken a real closed up look in the mirror a long time ago. Fat as an elephant when an elephant is at least cute and he is so poor, she had to buy him a house. Therefore at least have a clean heart and if you really can’t, take some bleach or something and stuff it down your throat. Because human have shame.

Monday, July 6, 2009

QUIZ !!!

hey guys!!! which is the best way to ask a girl for her number?

1. Give her flowers and ask her for her number.
2. Introduce yourself and ask for her number.
3. Meet her mother first then ask her for her number.
4. Go to the same school as her and ask her for her number.
5. Wait for her outside her school and ask her for her number
6. Take her blood sample and grab her number.
7. Tell her she’s beautiful and ask her for her number.
8. Kneel down to show your sincerity and ask her for her number.
9. Work out in the gym to get a gorgeous figure then ask her for her number.
10. Study hard and get a good job then ask her for her number.

AFA meeting

Last weekend, attended an AFA (action for aids) meeting. Out of the lot, I personally think that ITE simei was the most productive. They really make an effort in making a difference in the programme. They created video, which sadly, was unable to be projected but they have prepared to say something about it which clearly shows that they did homework. They also stated the most reflective point. To me Jeffery will be a big guidance for me and ct in the programme because he seemed like a supervisor in the programme whom we can feel his passion. Then we will continue being ugly ducklings terkedek-kedek kat belakang dia…

a note to adik.

I do love my adik much. This is just some crappy "poem" for him.

Everyone is beautiful,
in their own way,
But in this world,
No one can have,
A better child than you.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

luv :P

hehes just one of my RJs.

Hugs symbolize love. Since it’s a contact with one another so closely, it can’t be done unless someone feels comfortable with another person or more. Being comfortable doesn’t have to be in any specific form, for example anything intimate only or anything friendly only. We can be comfortable because we have been spending time with each other, because we clique, because we’re family and are naturally close or we like each other in an affectionate way. So we hug each other to console or just a happy hug that constantly show that we care.
A kiss also symbolises love be it being a peck or more. A mother kisses her child and her husband kisses her and before anyone got married their parents kisses them and when they have children their parents kisses their children. Friends kiss each other too and there many more categories of people who kiss each other. However, there a certain kiss which doesn’t reflect love at all but instead it embodies desire. Therefore the type of kiss does make a difference when indicating love.
A non tangible way that symbolises love is help. Going all the way to help a person can be really hard so to do that does mean something. We can kiss and hug all we want but when the time comes and we just leave our loved ones in the lurch, defeats every hugs and kisses. Therefore help is a subtle love. Even helping a stranger doesn’t mean we love that stranger but it does show love. At least for mankind.

Monday, April 27, 2009

why?


I don’t get it. Despite the awareness, there are people including those close to me who still choose to buy products that were tested on animals. When the beauty that they get, can easily be achieved even if they use products that are non animal tested. These people’s hearts are blind. I have a cat and he’s family to me. I can’t imagine chemicals and cosmetics being tested on my cat. I’ll go all the way to protect him like I wish to protect other animals. Is it that hard to understand the sufferings of those animals or is it the ego? That no matter what I say they choose not to listen and try to prove me wrong like asking me back whether violins should be banished since the strings are made of horses’ hair. These people, they totally don’t get the point. (picture not from me and no copyright intended and i feel for the rabbit too.)